twisted in fate.

my tears run down like razorblades

and no, im not the one to blame

it's you or is it me

and all the words we never say

come out and now we're all ashamed

and there's no sense in playing games

when you've done all you can do

but now it's over, it's over.

we had the chance to make it,

but now it's over.

i wish that i could take it back

but it's over.

i lose myself in all these fights

i lose my sense of wrong and right,

i cry..i cry..

it's shaking from the pain that's in my head

i just wanna crawl into my hed

and throw away the life i led

but i won't let it die.

but it's over, it's over

we had the chance to make it

now it's over.

i wish i could take it back.

I never thought we would talk again. At least, not after what we went through and how things had ended this way. I realized that after so many months, i never did apologize and truly, i am sorry. And baby, it's bittersweet that somehow after all this time, we still miss the times we had and knowing that we can never be together again.

I hate the fact that you assumed a lot of things and without having to try and come to me to clarify things. Jumping into conclusions, you've brought pain to not only yourself but me and the people around us and it really kills me. And naively, i always thought that things were gonna be okay after a while, and that you just needed time to get through it. But i was wrong. I overestimated your emotions and i didn't know how much you were hurting.

Last night, all the things you've said to me, half of them were practically not true and i knew because i know you better than anyone else to not believe things you say when ure angry and how much pain you had inside you.

I know i can never take the pain away but please know that you're not the only one that's hurting. Moving on doesn't mean you forget someone. It depends on you. You have always thought that i moved on and i have forgotten about you, leaving you in the dark but the truth is, i haven't forget you. Sometimes, when i sit down in my room, and it reminds me of you and how things were, i feel lonely and empty.

I may not love you in the way i used to but i still love you dearly as a person who's been very important in my life. And you still are, but only if you want it to be. I can't keep trying to make things better if ure not willing to give it a try.

I don't owe anyone any explanations about my actions. But it doesnt make you a loser or the desperate one, wanting to know what's going on in my life. All you have to do is just ask and i would tell you.

Honestly, i am not ready for another relationship so it's not personal. Right now, i am happy with where i am and what i have. I don't want to put myself through another roller coaster ride that my heart couldn't take.

What we had was beautiful and while things are just that way, let's not make anything worst. At least, this way, we can still reminisce the times we had.