If this was a movie

Peeps! 


It's been almost a week and a half now since I've started work. Bittersweet, sometimes I hate it but most of it, I love. My colleagues are amazing and shout outs to Elaine and Kuan. :B Definitely has opened my eyes to the outside world and a sneak peak of how reality is. One of the obvious lesson learnt is money doesn't come easy and if I knew what I know now, I'd probably appreciate my parents more given the things they've showered me since birth. But hey, it's never too late to learn. Life's hard and because it's LIFE, everything seems harder. 


My horoscope has been telling me a lot and ( yes, im a horoscope girl and leave me alone ) I reckon it's been getting into my head a little bout what I've read so far. Some true while others are just mere bullshit unless you're the kind of person who buys " fairytale and happy-ending " shit. 


The following part may not make much sense but it doesnt matter, I just need my little own space for my own rant. 


I can't say it doesn't hurt but it's definitely pain that I can live with. I'm just glad that after all that's happen, it only took me this long to realize how incompatible we are for each other. You and I don't belong in the same world and baby, you would be happier with someone like her. I cherished every moment spent together because they're the proof of what we had. For a moment, I could almost picture myself being with a guy like you. Despite the rejections and lack of support from my friends, I believed I did almost everything to give this relationship a chance. If you ask me, any regrets? Yes, in the long run, I might ask myself why did I let it slipped away when something could be done. But then again, it's not just my opinion alone that matters. Relationships functions well both ways. However, I guess there isn't much left to say, is there? Now that things have turned up this way, it's something I have to live with. For what it is worth, it was good while it lasted. 


If This Was A Movie by Taylor Swift. 

Last night I heard my own heart beating
Sounded like footsteps on my stairs
Six months gone and I'm still reaching
Even though I know you're not there

I was playing back a thousand memories, baby
Thinkin bout everything we've been through
Maybe I've been going back too much lately
When time stood still and I had you 


Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would, you would if this was movie
Stand in the rain till I came out
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You could, you could if you just said you're sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now

I know people change and these things happen
But i remember how it was back then
Locked up in your arms and our friends were laughing
Cause nothing like this ever happened to them

Now I'm pacing down the hall, chasing down your street
Flashbacks to the night when you said to me
" Nothing's ever gonna change, not for me and you "
Not before I knew how much I had to lose


Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would, you would if this was movie
Stand in the rain till I came out
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You could, you could if you just said you're sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now


If you're out there, if you're somewhere, if you're moving on
I've been waiting for you ever since you've been gone
I just want it back the way it was before
And I just wanna see you back at my front door 


And I say come back, come back, come back to me like
You would before you said it's not that easy
Before the fight, before I locked you out
But I'd take it all back now

Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would, you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside till I came out.
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You could, you could if you just said you're sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now


This song reminds me of you and I. Reminds me of all the times we've been together and what it is costing me now. 

the aftermath

Last night wasn't one of my good nights at all. Jo left for Bangkok to pursue her dreams of being a baker. Don't know when will be the next time I shall get to see her but hopefully soon. Talking bout it makes me miss her even more. With Jo, the journey is definitely bittersweet. We didn't start off as friends but rather the opposite and back then, we used to call each other the " bitch ". Now we are each other's bitch. :P The one thing I love the most about Jo is her utter honesty. She is very straightforward and says what is on her mind kinda girl. Which is good for people like me sometimes because I tend to get lied to and manipulated easily. Hopefully the next time we see each other, she'll finally get what she wants and i shall grow up just a tad bit more. :P Maybe even a Thai hawt boy by her side. *fingers crossed* 

Work for me is starting tomorrow. And I won't get any break until CNY which means no drinking, no late nights for me anymore. Good or bad? Maybe both. :P 

Dad and Mom has just plan for a family vaca to PD during CNY which is superb because this would mean that we are having our very first vacation together after 6 years. And exactly a few after that I will be off to Kuching to see my dear C. :P 

Some of the people i miss. :B 

Tari 

Azee

Crystal

Crystal's children.