augustine.

it's been the greatest two weeks i ever had ever since college has resume. :P I have encounter my kind and they're the perfect matches of my species. coincidence and accidentals brought us together and here we are.

and the sad thing is we have to part ways for a week of raya holidays when we're just starting to bond. bummer much.

cant wait for thursday my dear darlings!

we're awesome like that.

celebrated chang's brithday on monday. :P and guess what, we only met like 3 days before monday and we're already celebrating birthdays? :P

birthday's at TGIF and obviously they embarrassed him.

crystal, hafiz, zeck and bday boy.

disney character day during business comp tutorial. :P

bourne with his mou'gli character.

paired up with cherine.

last night joyi joined me to college and the three highschool bestfriend met up for a little lunch session that turned into stalking ducks.

celine and her admirations for ducks.

crystal.

celine.

jason, the kid.

we chilled at echo for a little impromtu jam session after dinner at backofen.

my inspiration. <3

young. mua. crystal

crystal trying to kiss her way out of the lake.

pole dancing much?

elmo <3

i am proud to be a nerd for angry bird.

I am really looking forward to the holidays to finish as much assignments i have before hand, before thursday. :P

until then,

HAPPY RAYA HOLIDAYS!

xx

Dinner at Pasta.

God, i never get tired of this place even when i have to queue for 20 minutes just to make my reservation.

Salmon Kani to Avocado Tortilla Roll.

Unagi Kabayaki - roasted eel with kabayaki sauce

Grilled Chicken Cutlet on Rice

Hot Pot Seafood Pasta

Ebi Tempurara no Gomadare Shitate - Prawn Tempura Pasta with Sesame Sauce

Garlic Rice topped with Roasted Eel & Omelette served with Miso Soup

Combination of Sesame, Green Tea and Chocolate Ice cream.

my favorite dessert. :)

xx

fml, last night i dont know what i did with my phone and now it's so screwed up. and my little babies only about 4 months old, what a bummer.

it's funny how feelings can play little mind tricks on your heart.

at least, that's what its doing to me right now.

they say pictures are worth a thousand words. i couldn't agree more. i always believe that camera's are one of the best inventions of mankind because it's the only thing that can capture time, moments that you wanna treasure and maybe look back some day. Days like today, when i look back on all the pictures, pictures of you and me, friends, birthdays and parties.

I captioned the folder of our pictures, " magic ". Because every time when i look back at them, old feelings come back to me like as though it was just yesterday. I miss being over your apartment taking pictures with you and your big fat cat! :) Or when we went to Pyramid walking instead of taking a cab.

Every now and then, i get a notification on facebook and when it's your name mentioned, little smirks naturally appear on my face. Just like the way you used to smile when you look at me. :P

You are still my favourite crush and will always be. :P

I hope my baby doesn't angry reading this. But im sure he wouldn't. He knows very well, he has my heart. :P

Bummers that i couldn't come over this holiday. was really looking forward for a meet up and exploring places in Sabah with ya. :)

xx

What my heart speaks.

Updating the blog with my iPad.

It's been almost a week since I updated anything. This whole week has been packed with college stuff and I feel like I haven't been given a time to catch my breath much less, blog. Mom was gone for the whole week so I could drive to college myself and it wasn't as fun as I thought it would be. First reason being is that our campus parking sucks. If you want a nice prking, you have to get there before 8 and 8.30 if ure lucky. That would mean I have to leave home by 6.30 to avoid the jam and wake up at 5.30. 2nd reason is the jam. Omg, I swear I would die man. And I almost did, I was so tired and it was about another 1 hour journey from home so I pulled up by the highway and took a short nap.

The semester has been alright so far, it's great to see ur friends again after such along break. But the assignments are a bitch. They pour in like heavy rain, exactly like the weather today. Everyone in class is pretty much looking forward towards the end of the month for the raya holiday. That includes me, not to mention the holiday on Wednesday. I already feel so much better talking about it.

Aside from college, I think that's the only thing that's actually going on in my life. I haven't had a sip to drink or go for pool or hang out with my babes. Can't say I don't miss them at all. Maybe wednesday would be a good day to go get myself drunk. Teehee, just sayin.

Met a couple of nice people in college and am getting closer to a few. Like the saying, " God takes people away from your life because He thinks you deserve better people to be in it. " so true, sometimes when you're trying to let go of something but it may seem impossible at time and you wanna give up, just hang out a little and you'll see that it's not so impossible. In fact, before you know it, you might just have gotten over it.

Was worried bout the riot going on in london since aunt's over there but last night she gave us a call saying she's okay. And since were on the subject of uk, I still haven't decided whether to go further my studies. Mom and dad are very supportive but somehow, I just can't put my mind to it yet. Is it because I am still waiting on you?

Grandpa's coming over tonight and I feel bad for the last time when he came around, I was out with my friends. I haven't had dinne with gong gong for almost 5 weeks now.

I guess that's just it. I hope I can find some time to update again. I hate to leave it empty.

Xx

Sorry for the absence but i haven't been able to get myself around the computer lately. It's the 2nd week of my semester and so far, i don't like it any bit at all. The assignments have already acted on its own, pouring in subjects after subjects and

i keep falling for your tricks.

Dinner #1

When I Need You

When I need you, I just close my eyes

And I'm with you.

And all that i so wanna give you

It's only a heartbeat away

When I need love I hold out my hands

And I touch love.

I never knew there was so much love

Keeping me warm night and day

Miles and miles of empty space in between us

The telephone can't take the place of your smile

But you know I won't be travelling forever.

It's cold out but hold out

And do like I do

When I need you, I just close my eyes

And I'm with you.

And all that I so wanna give you babe

It's only a heartbeat away

It's not easy when the road is your driver

Honey that's a heavy load that we bear

But you know i won't be travelling a lifetime.

It's cold out but hold out

And do like i do

I need you.

lunchie #1

Lunch with Phoebe and Natalie at Zhia's Kitchen in college last night. :)

Phoebe's salted fish mince pork with rice.

I ordered cereal coated pork with rice. :)

Read my thoughts

If you don't feel like reading this post because the whole fking post would be a rant, dont read it and just click the close button. Don't say i didn't warn you and if you wanna read 'em, don't fking judge me.

Ups and downs, and here we are. 2 years ago, i would never see us being apart. Not like how we are today. Even when we're in the same fking college, we don't talk or make time to see each other. Neither do we phone each other and text like old times. I understand that you're upset and angry because we didn't end things properly the last time. And baby, i've apologized a thousand times and right now, im tired of apologizing because now everything its like my fault when they are not. The reason why we broke up had nothing to do with him and you know it so why does it matter now? I have low mentality and you wanna slap me? What the fuck man?

I hate it that every single time i pick up the phone, i always end up crying because you're always so pissed at me. It's been 6 months and you said you've moved on, so have i. And before you jumped into any of your stupid conclusion, moving on doesn't mean you have to be with someone new. You're always so ignorant especially when your angry, you let your emotions take over and forget to use your mind. And because of this, over the past two years, we've fought like a zillion time.

I know i didn't treat you well and i didn't handle things properly. If i could take them away, i would but it's already in the past and there's nothing i could do about it so that's why i am not doing anything anymore. I still love you dearly and just like how we promised each other, we'd still be someone in each other lives because of what we had.

But you are no longer the man that i once knew. You said that you've changed after what happened. Fine, i accept that and if that's really how you are now, i don't think we should ever be friends anymore. Im sorry i can't keep that promise anymore. Let's pretend it's my fault okay? Just like how every breakup and heartbreak you went through, all my fault. It had nothing to do with you. You happy now.

Im not afraid to let people know what happened and certainly don't give a fuck about what they have to say.

What im trying to say is i hope you can walk in my shoes for a little while and see what is it that im feeling. I know exactly how you feel thats why every time when you get pissed off at me, i still keep my patience and keep coming back to you. You should know better.

I know you still love me deep down and that's why you're angry. I'm sorry. AND PLEASE DONT SAY WHY DID YOU DO IT IF YOU IT DIDNT MEAN ANYTHING! Would you just shut up and let me apologise baby? :P

I hope after reading this, i would get a call from you and this time, you are no longer angry and we can talk normally.

But if you still can't deal with it, then i guess that's just it.

Souled Out.

I just had dinner with mummy and lil brother at Souled Out after the doctor's appointment. I was so hungryyy because before we left home, only mom and brother had lunch. :( So by the time the doctor's appointment was over, it was already close to 8 pm.

Mummy ordered Dragonfly.

I got myself a bloody eclipse.

I love how they layered the different types of fruits and you get the liberty of digging in.

Carbonara Spaghetti with beef bacon and mushroom.

Nasi Lemak. :)

Mango Prawns Salad with Avocado.

I love this too! :) the mangoes were so fresh and the types of veg they combined with were awesome.

Feels like taking the girls out there one day to have a good time. :)

Ps: nice place to check out cute guys. saw one today. austrian. brian. :) nice meeting you too.

xx

Lately, this girl seems to be hogging my night life with skype sessions. Won't say i really ENJOY it, okay la maybe a little but thanks babe, for being there. :)

I love you too beetch.

i am a fool for you.

Recruitment Drive/Day today and as a member of the Photography club, i am proudly to present you my club members. :) Although i know no shit about cameras for example the flash la, which lens and what not and all the others, i like being in the club, surrounded by people who has a passion just like me.

When i say passion in photography, i don't mean camwhoring. ( although, camwhoring is a form of photography so who's to say it's not. ) I enjoy taking pictures and being taken. :)

peilin. being a sweetheart like she has always been, :)

by peilin. :)

fish no 1.

fish no 2.

fish no 3.

After the drive, we all had lunch at oldtown. Throughout the whole time, Derrick and Ceaves were attacking me with lotus seeds and worm coming out from nipples stories. Telling me that my whipped cream on my signature freeze is like the juice of the fking maggots. Afterawhile, peilin decided to join in the attack. Very nice la the three of you.

Din din with Jin and then off to Ac for some pool sessions. :) Funney girl weih! :) And we both have the same fettish for LeeMinHo. :)

While waiting for steve to come pick me up from college, the view of my campus at night is so amazing. :) See couples sitting by the lake too. :)