Ups and downs, and here we are. 2 years ago, i would never see us being apart. Not like how we are today. Even when we're in the same fking college, we don't talk or make time to see each other. Neither do we phone each other and text like old times. I understand that you're upset and angry because we didn't end things properly the last time. And baby, i've apologized a thousand times and right now, im tired of apologizing because now everything its like my fault when they are not. The reason why we broke up had nothing to do with him and you know it so why does it matter now? I have low mentality and you wanna slap me? What the fuck man?
I hate it that every single time i pick up the phone, i always end up crying because you're always so pissed at me. It's been 6 months and you said you've moved on, so have i. And before you jumped into any of your stupid conclusion, moving on doesn't mean you have to be with someone new. You're always so ignorant especially when your angry, you let your emotions take over and forget to use your mind. And because of this, over the past two years, we've fought like a zillion time.
I know i didn't treat you well and i didn't handle things properly. If i could take them away, i would but it's already in the past and there's nothing i could do about it so that's why i am not doing anything anymore. I still love you dearly and just like how we promised each other, we'd still be someone in each other lives because of what we had.
But you are no longer the man that i once knew. You said that you've changed after what happened. Fine, i accept that and if that's really how you are now, i don't think we should ever be friends anymore. Im sorry i can't keep that promise anymore. Let's pretend it's my fault okay? Just like how every breakup and heartbreak you went through, all my fault. It had nothing to do with you. You happy now.
Im not afraid to let people know what happened and certainly don't give a fuck about what they have to say.
What im trying to say is i hope you can walk in my shoes for a little while and see what is it that im feeling. I know exactly how you feel thats why every time when you get pissed off at me, i still keep my patience and keep coming back to you. You should know better.
I know you still love me deep down and that's why you're angry. I'm sorry. AND PLEASE DONT SAY WHY DID YOU DO IT IF YOU IT DIDNT MEAN ANYTHING! Would you just shut up and let me apologise baby? :P
I hope after reading this, i would get a call from you and this time, you are no longer angry and we can talk normally.
But if you still can't deal with it, then i guess that's just it.
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