people i call family, place i call home.

My pillar of strengths. 

On a tuesday morning.

Am supposed to be studying but here I am saying this..


I have found almost everything ever written about love to be true

Shakespeare said, " Journeys end in lovers meeting. " What an extraordinary thought.

Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that but I'm more than willing to believe that Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I'm constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said, " Love is blind. " Now that is something I know to be true. For some, quite inexplicably love fades. For others, love is simply lost. But then of course, love can also be found, even if it just for the night. And then there is another kind of love. The cruelest kind, the one that almost kills its victim. It's called unrequited love of that, I am an expert. Most love stories are about people falling in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories? Those of us who fall in love alone. We are the victims of the one-sided affairs. We are the cursed of the loved one. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space.

The Holiday. 

And here i am. Being in love alone gives me the worst days of my life. The worst Christmases and birthdays.
Every day that I live is being brought in with tears and aspirins.

Sometimes, I wish things were simpler, less complicated. You get to know the guy, and you go out watch a movie, eat some dinner and you fall in love. Enjoys each others company, go over to each other's place, snuggle together and watch movies on the couch.
You'd rather stay in cooking each other breakfast and dinner than going out to 5 stars restaurants. Lastly, you go to bed with the same person you wake up to every morning.

Life isn't made easy. Saw this picture on my girl's blog and it says..

L.I.F.E. = Life isn't fucking easy.

It is true. But then again, the most important thing is that you live the life you want and not let life past you through and walk you over. Same goes to a guy. If a man's capable of cheating and have another girl on the line, you'd know better to chuck him off instantly instead of holding on to him.

College life isn't easy but it's the best part of our lives. It's time to have fun and embrace the world, making friends and do what you want. I know that my studies are important but at the same time, you only have one life to live and if you're gonna just throw everything away and waste it like this, you might as well not live ever.

Someone asked me if I was in love or by any chance, have feelings for any guy right now. The truth is, I think I am in love with the idea of being in love and really not so much of the guy. Until i meet the right guy, this stuff's just aint working on me. And for once, I shall wait patiently.

I shall wait patiently for him to come into my life.

Yours truly,
Mandy.

it's true. things have to go both ways and for things to work, both hands have to clap. 

Wondering when will the real thing come along and sweep me off my feet.  

Lucky Bastard. 

Exactly my point, for those who aren't real and doing any good in my life, get out of my life and fuck up some other people's life. 

Fuck Off.

Semester break starts today for me and the rest of my IBM mates until finals comes for us 1 week from now.

Friends.

They come and go. Some stayed and the others wandered off. Over the years, I've learnt that it is no longer how long have you've been friends but rather how long more can you maintain the relationship. What can you do and how you should do it.

Truth be told, I am imperfect. I have my own flaws and to name a few, i have a really bad temper and bipolar. One minute before I can be excited bout one thing but the next minute, I can get really sick about it. And most of all, I dont expect everyone to understand me or what is it that do for shits. But i believe that if you can't see me at my worst, then you certainly don't deserve me at my best.

I love everything I have now. My family, my friends and what i am now. The only thing lacking in my life right now is the determination I used to have for my studies. Heck, not even sure if i ever did have any.

Crystal.
It's been 3 months since the first day I met her at Bubba Gump during Chang's birthday. Like any other friendship, there's bound to have disagreements and we do fight sometimes but that doesn't mean our friendship isn't strong.

From left : Heather, Ilham, Myself and Crystal.

Joyi. 

Although we don't see each other from time to time, we remain as bestfriends after all this year. :) Distance wouldn't change a thing for us. She knows me better than any of my friends and still loves me for who i am. 

I know that you can't control what other people have to say about you but seriously, if you have a problem with me or my friends, come and say it to our face and not behind our backs cause that just showing how shallow and unworthy of a person you are. 

As for those who pretends and hang around with us like friends and behind our backs, talking shit about us to the others, i know who you are and i ain't gonna do anything to you, neither will i try to confront you. Just fuck off from my life. Fyi, i hate drama. So, if you're not done growing up yet, by all means go fuck yourself with someone else ur age. 

dare you to move

It's been a long time since i've updated here. 
Actually, it's been a long time since i figured something to say. 


Life has been kind to me. Im living the college life experience everyday with the people i have, people i call family. I used to resent the fact that i need to go to college, especially getting into class with a bunch of fking hypocrites but now i found another reason, another purpose. And this is a purpose for my own and not others. 

From left: Sash, Me and Crystal. 

I love this babies to death. Wish we could get a group picture of the rest. 

Can't believe it's been already 2 months and before i know it, i'll be gone to UK and i wont get to see them anymore.