Hello there! 

It's been another week and finally semester begins in 2 days. :) It's been very overwhelming, this holiday of mine. I'm pleading to God to make my coming holidays as amazing as this one. :D 

I dyed the hair burgundy which shades of purple. Have not try this colour before but im definitely loving it. However, I do realize something bout my hair and that the colour doesn't stick for long. Am supposed to go redo them every 3 months which means damaging my hair. Pfft. But until then,  I like my hair dark. I feel much healthier and fresh. 

Hung out with the best friend after the long break.  We went to Midvalley for some random shopping spree and then C wanted to eat her heart out with the salmon especially after telling her I had 60 pieces of them at the buffet. 

I go crazy with the Jap! :D 

I have yet to meet someone who loves Japanese food as much as I do. :) Need to share this passion with someone, would be such a waste. 

Oh, did i mention that I am in love? :) 

After two and a half years of being single and beating around the bushes, I have found someone special to share my happiness and sorrows with. It's a little overwhelming and I am still trying to believe it myself. <3 

hoodie.

Whenever I get like this...

And undergo jean-ni therapy. 

After being jean-nified. 

I love you sweetheart. We both shall get through this and help to fix each other up. Thanks for being the pillar of strength when I needed someone the most. 

Consequences and the benefit of the Doubt.

I feel insecure. All over again. I could pretend to be okay in the morning and put a big fake smile on my face but when the sun sets, and the night falls upon, I find myself so weak and vulnerable, almost fragile. My mind is so tired from all the running because to be honest, you've been running in out of my mind all day long.


Please spare me the confusion because I don't feel like I could take another moment of this especially with all the previous never-worked-out relationships that I have lost count. Throughout all my relationships, the only time I'd ever fallen in love was with this guy. Let's name him Dylan. I could swear for sure he was the guy that I'd spent the rest of my life with. Despite my dreams and hopes, we were never meant for each other. He had bigger dreams and happy endings to chase after, and I was not part of it.


However, that didn't stop me from loving him over the years and no matter what, I'd had a place in my heart for him even when I was in a relationship with someone else. Yes, you're probably thinking what kind of a person am I and how could I be so selfish. But then again, who ever said love was selfless or that it was fair? Emotions cannot be measured by and it certainly cannot be locked up t to a certain person or period of time of your favor. Heck, I'd wish it was this simple then probably divorce attorney wouldn't even have a job. 


For those of us who are not in a relationship and feels the same way like me, I'd like to think that we are lost running in the crossroads of an empty field and over and over again, we fall back into the same places running into the same people. Round peg, square hole. And in order for us to not go down that path again, we simply not go down that path again. Make a new path, find a new field, explore a little. Like what C says, " Travel alone and get lost, cause along the way, you'd find yourself and meet new people. " 


Broken hearts and wet tissue papers all over the floor. Been there and I think I lost count of it. So, why feel so low? Be happy and grateful that another day has bestowed upon you and you are given the chance to make a difference. If you don't like what you are right now, change it. You aren't happy bout a relationship, break it off and give yourself some time in solitude.  


At this point of my life, I can truly tell someone in the face that I am generally happy with whatever that is going on and taking course. And the best thing bout it is that I don't need a man to make me happy and give me things that I want. Because I am independent enough to make myself happy and provide the things that I want in life.

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Since I practically now have nothing much to do, I've decided to clean and organize my pictures storage on the computer and do a little something for the blog. Along the way, I found some pictures that are worth cherishing, and I shall put them up.


For sentimental reasons and looking back at all these pictures brings back all the feeling that I never thought I'd feel again. A little nostalgic but I like it.


In the event, some of these people aren't in my life anymore but I feel like it's a part of me and you're not supposed to hate the memories too because at that point of life, they were good. Some, one of the best.

Baby brother's birthday last January. :) 

3D Screening with baby Angie. :) 

Birthday last year with baby Jo. And yes *I'm a Nerd. *

Tony, one of my old old friends back in Garden's. I do miss those time we hang out babe and i'm sorry if I haven't had the time. :) Soon. Soon. Soon. <3 

Christopher. :) i'm so happy that you and becky finally moved into the new apartment and i'm so excited bout your wedding. :) Can't believe it's been 4 years now since the first time we had our first skypecast and where we met. :P Be missing you always dear one! 

I just wanna scream my lungs out now and tell you how much i miss you !  

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Sometimes, when I sit by the balcony on my own, i often wondered bout Christmas and what it would be like. Would it be the same like every year? Or is it going to be different? Is anything special gonna happen?

Among all the holiday festive, Christmas happens to be my favourite. I love the idea of Christmas in every single way. The colour, the meaning, the food, the weather, the carols, etc. Unwrapping presents under the Christmas tree always ended disastrously because I'd stomp around the house if I didnt get what I want. 

My fetish for Candy bars and white chocolates are never gone. :B Thumbs up for you if you are the same too. 

Those who know me well knows that I am a different myself when I get too attached with alcohol. 

Vampified.

The maid's gone for two weeks so until her return, I am the tempo maid. :B 


First day, I've done more chores in a day than I ever did in the last couple of years. Sure, I've done all this in back in highschool but still, the fact that I've not been lifting a finger make everything a little hard to do. But I manage to get everything together and someone had a bet over me that I might not last through the week. :) We shall see, you gorilla. :) 


I haven't update much because I've been stucked with the drama series, " The Vampire Diaries " and I gotta say, I am hooked. And once im true with the second season, I'll go get the book and read. To be honest, I've heard lots of good reviews bout the movie and the book but I was to skeptical to go give it a try because I wanted to be loyal to my twilightsaga. But the moment I watched the first epi, I couldn't stop until I finished the entire season last night. :) The best thing bout the drama series are the boys and the storyline but most of al, the genre of songs played in the movie, ME LOVE! 


This is gonna be a short one since I'm going to bed now. ( and it's only 10.30pm ) 


POOO! 




Until then, have a great day everyone! <3 

Banana Cake

Banana Cake. 

Ingredients: 
A. 
5 eggs
15g ovalette
230g caster sugar 


B. ( Mixed together )
170ml corn oil 
230g cake flour ( I used low protein ) 
1 tsp double-action baking powder 


C. ( Mixed together ) 
250g ripen banana ( mashed, and if you wanted a stronger aroma of the banana, you could add it up to 300g) 
60g evaporated milk
1 tsp baking soda
1 tsp banana essence




Method: 
1. Line and grease your rectangular tin. Preheat the oven at 180 degree celcius. 
2. In a mixing bowl, whisk at high speed ingredient (A) until light and fluffy. 
3. Gradually add in ingredient (B) beat at low speed. Lastly, add in ingredient (C). 
4. Pour them into the prepared tin and bake for 45 to 50 minutes. Cool cake well. 

Crystalized!

Happy birthday sweetheart!

It's supposed to be the first birthdays that we both get to celebrate with each other but since you're still back there in Kuching, I'd supposed we have to wait till March 14. 

I shall keep this short because there isn't really much to say except that I love you. :) 

When you get back, it's time to party! :D 

xx!

Burn.

Baby, I'm alright with just a kiss goodnight. 


This part of me has never felt so real. I've fallen in love before but this feels different. And I'm not sure why. Back when I was with my ex, he was a mistake to begin with but looking back at the 2 years we were together, there were happy times that we both shared. As human, we should be holding on to the good memories and let go of the bad. That's if you want to be a living Casanova. 


This morning, after having breakfast with my grandpa and brother, I decided to do something out of the routine. I took the car out and drove to the mountain top and stayed there for a little. It was 8.45 am. I was going through my songs and Two Is Better Than One came up. Now have you ever felt like a song could bring you back to a time and memories just go past your naked eyes like you were still there, living them all over again? 


You were the biggest jackass I've met.  I was gonna say the entire world but then it wouldn't be fair to the rest that I've not met. I used to think the world of you and how wonderful my world is with you around, with you in it. The flowers, the movies, the endless drives, the nights. And obviously when everything came to an end, I figured my whole life might as well come along, down. But you. The very same guy that thought me how to love  and hurt also thought me how to live and forget. 

I could swear that after you, I've met a few nice gentlemen and as much as I tried to make myself fall in love with them or at the least, grow interest, I don't think I can. And sometimes when you come knocking back at my door, I'd believe you in a heartbeat and come back to you. Because I love you so much. There. I said it. 


But starting from today, I'm gonna let you go.  This is the only way I'm gonna be happy. And actually let someone make me happy. :) 

I don't understand whySee it's burning me to hold onto thisI know this is something I gotta doBut that don't mean I want toWhat I'm trying to say is that I love you, I justI feel like this is coming to an endAnd it's better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt youI gotta let it burn

It's gonna burn for me to say thisBut it's comin' from my heartIt's been a long time comingBut we done been fell apartReally wanna work this outBut I don't think you're gonna changeI do but you don'tThink it's best we go our separate ways

Tell me why I should stay in this relationshipWhen I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy babyPlus there's so many other things I gotta deal withI think that you should let it burn

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want toBut you know gotta let it go'Cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used toEven though this might ruin youLet it burnLet it burnGotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but youHate the thought of her being with someone elseBut you know that it's overWe know that it's throughLet it burnLet it burnGotta let it burn

Sendin' pages I ain't supposed toGot somebody here but I want you'Cause the feelin' ain't the same by myselfCallin' her your nameLadies tell me do you understand?Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?It's the way I feel, I know I made a mistakeNow it's too late I know she ain't comin' back

What I gotta do nowTo get my shorty backMan I don't know what I'm gonna doWithout my booYou've been gone for too longIt's been fifty-leven days, um-teen hoursImma be burnin' till you return

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want toBut you know gotta let it go'Cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used toEven though this might ruin youLet it burnLet it burnLet it burn

Deep down you know its best for yourself but youHate the thought of her being with someone elseBut you know that it's overWe know that it's throughLet it burnLet it burnGotta let it burn

I'm twisted 'cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move onOn the other side I wanna break down and cryI'm twisted 'cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move onOn the other side I wanna break down and cry, yeah

Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh oohOoh ooh ooh can ya feel me burnin'?Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh oohSo many days, so many hoursI'm still burnin' till you return

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want toBut you know gotta let it go'Cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used toEven though this might ruin youLet it burnLet it burnGotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but youHate the thought of her being with someone elseBut you know that it's overWe know that it's throughLet it burnLet it burnGotta let it burn