This past week,there's been so much bothering me and i feel so stupid about myself because it took me so long to realize.

I used to think that friendship was simple. You have things in common and you like each other, you befriends with each other and the friendship just maintain. I guess i was too silly. And i should have known, after that past incident with someone for that whole 11 years.

It's so hard to be around you. Funny thing is that, when you hang out with someone too frequently, you either get accused of being in a relationship with that person or you're stealing him/her away from another individual. In my case, it's both.

As ridiculous as it sound, i feel absurd that someone even had to lie to me to hide the truth away from me. Seriously, what's with all the lying and hiding? And if you're gonna really say something, i would very much appreciate that it's done right in my face rather than all the secrecy because it's starting to get on my nerves.

Do i really look like someone could take everything in or everyone's just plain bitchy trying to bring people down?

I thought it was the final call with all these so called drama and gossip after her but obviously i was being naive.

Right now the only thing going through is my mind, is how am i supposed to look at each one of you the way i used to after knowing the real you?

First impressions are important. People put so much effort into making a good impression to fit in. After some time, you'll soon realize those are just little mind games and tricks people play nowadays to earn their way in other's life. Heck, it's the currency for the social world.

Silly me,

To think that you are different.